Friday, October 12, 2012

Fridays Letters

Dear Car ... I know, I know. You are dirty. I am so sorry I have ignored you this long.  If it matters, I really do feel guilty every time I leave you.  Today, we will have a date. I will take you for a whirl through that fancy car wash. I promise.

Dear Costco ... I am in love with you for many reasons. The husband and I can have dinner &  dessert with you for less then $10. Also, thanks for providing me with enough bagels & cream cheese to last me many months.  You never know when there will be a bagel shortage.

Dear New Jersey Housewives ... One only more installment of the reunion is left.  I am not sure how I will live without all your drama for another year.  And Juicy Joe .. give up already. You got busted.

Dear Weather ... I see you have inserted a possibility of rain in my forecast.  I suggest you revise that, I'm not quite ready for that yet.  After all, I have a date with my car today, and she doesn't like to be rained on after she gets all pretty.

Dear Dr Pepper ... It has been 10 long months since I've last spent time with you.  I'm sure you miss me, but I don't miss you.  It has been refreshing living without all soda for an entire 10 months!  Sorry, your pretty and stuff in your adorable reddish can, but I don't like you anymore.

Dear Fred Meyer (grocery store) ... Yes, you saw it right.  I totally visited you without make up on. Whatever was I thinking? It was quite freeing, and thank goodness I didn't see anyone I knew. After I left you, I know I will never do it again.  Without running into anyone I know was a total freebie this time, I know I wont get so lucky a second time around.

Dear Friday ... Thank you for being you. The total ying to my yang. Come around more often, wont ya?

For more Friday letters, click the image above to check out Ashley's link up.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Endometriosis .. my story.

I have a disease called Endometrosis. Some people know a little about this, but in more cases then not, most are not familiar with exactly what this condition entails.   I thought I would write a little about it today, share my experiences, in hopes to bring more awareness.

For those that are not familiar, Endometriosis is the abnormal growth of cells (endometrial cells) similar to those that form the inside of the uterus, but in a location outside of the uterus.  Fun right?

From the endless hours of research I have done, I have learned that over one million women are affected with disease. Many are not even aware, because they do not have the symptoms, lucky them!

In my case, I have many of the symptoms. My cycles are extremely painful. I know, I know .. all cycles are painful right?  I have had many people tell me that when I explain that I have Endometriosis .  I don't want to judge others, but in my case there are times I cant even get out of bed. There are days I cant walk without being hunched over  because I am in so much pain, and simply some days I cant even walk for that matter.   There are days I am ghostly white and even the best of the best prescription pain medicine doesn't help.  The pelvic pain and cramps are really out of this world. Another symptom  I suffer from is infertility.

Getting a diagnosis for this disease is not easy. I went through more then my fair share of ultrasounds, both the easy ones & the uncomfortable ones. I have had a handful of MRI's and cat scans, and more pelvic exams than I would wish on anyone.  It wasn't until a tumor was found on one of my ovaries during an MRI, that I had a operation, and that is when my doctor could give me a definite diagnosis.   The tumor was softball sized and in fact was a build up of all the endometrial tissue.  It was non-cancerous, thank you Jesus.

Treatments.  That's funny to me, because really there is nothing that really takes this away, or a certain cure of any sort for me. During my operation, many of the endometrial cells that were in a safe position to be cauterized were done so. However, they continue to grow. The cells attach to organs all over the body, can form tumors like I had, and in some cases turn cancerous. For some women, birth control can help, but in my case, made it worse.  You can opt to have operations over and over to get the cells cauterized.  You can have GnrH treatments which suppress the estrogen production in your body, and that can slow down the growth, but that also puts your body into a menopausal state (bone loss, hot flashes, mood swings).  In my 30's, I don't really want to be in a menopausal state.  Some women opt for a complete hysterectomy, again in a menopausal state. In some cases this helps them, unless of course you are one of the women that need hormone replacements and if you add in estrogen, then the Endometriosis will grow again.   So in my case, there is no real answer. I often re-visit all these treatments with my doctor, and for now I just deal with it. With of course my prescription pain medicine. I need this about 3 days a month.

Having a job with Endometriosis is not ideal. There are days each month, I just cannot function.  When I worked outside the home, it was a known fact that I would just be out of work for 2-3 days per month. Luckily, I work for a bigger company that has to comply with the Family Medical Leave Act (FMLA), so after a whole lot of paperwork is filled out by my doctor, its gets approved.  In the last few years, Ive been lucky to be able to work from home, and choose my own hours, so my time away has lessened.  I can work during my good hours one day and make it up on another day. 

Having Endometriosis certainly has its control over my life. I have to plan around it, and try to gauge where the painful days will fall each month. Planning a vacation months in advance is not ideal.  I have taken part in a few medical studies for different medications they try to get approved for this disease, but as of now, nothing new. As I am getting older, I may re-visit some of these treatment options, but I am not on board with operations or treatments that are not certain. For example, Im not interested in a hysterectomy, not knowing if I will need hormone replacements, and then if I do, end up in the same spot I am in now. I have read many stories where this indeed happens, and women end up in worse shape then they were in before this procedure.

I have been judged over and over again.  I just ask that next time you want to roll your eyes at someone, or disregard someone for just being on their cycle .. there could be bigger issues.  I can't even count, how many times, when I worked in the office, I would come back in to hundreds of questions asking why I was out, and after explaining,  getting the "Oh my cycles are painful too, and I still come to work" replies.  Oh how I wish for a minute, they could go through what I do each month. (not really) We are all so quick to judge, myself included, that sometimes we need to step back and realize it could be a bigger issue.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Fun with Alyssa

Happy Monday. 
Weekends are never long enough,
and why does it seems Mondays
last forever?

This past weekend, I was lucky enough
to spend some time with my little niece Alyssa.
I don't get to spend much time with
these little's anymore, so when
I have the opportunity, I soak up
each and every minute.

Seems like yesterday, this little girl
was born. She recently turned 2, and
she has developed quite the personality,
She has the sweetest little voice, and
it just melts my heart each time
she calls me Nanu. Auntie Nanu .. is
what that all my niece's & nephews call me :)

We didn't have anything special planned, just
some time to play, and for me to annoy her
with the camera.   I think that's my job,
and I must admit it was nice to dust off
the camera and get reacquainted.

We stopped to smell the flowers, &
Isn't that what life is about anyway?

We cooked with lemons.

And of course, we made some make shift drums.
Add a whisk, a basting brush and a Mickey Mouse foot stool.
And drum. LOUDLY.
Yup, that's how we roll at my house.

She found her Uncle's iPhone laying around, and she
maneuvered that thing like she had her own. She took
her tiny hands, swiped that thing off the table, and
made herself comfortable up on the sofa.   Too precious.
Looks like shes done this a time or two.
Santa beware ... she may
be asking for an iPhone this year.

The rest of the afternoon,
was just spent having fun and
spending time together.
A few hours with a pig tailed
little 2 year old, sure does that heart good.

If you don't have a two year old readily accessible,
I suggest you go find yourself one next weekend.
They will make you smile, laugh, and really melt your heart.

Have a great week -

Friday, October 5, 2012

Fridays Letters

Dear Yankee Candle ... Thank you for making my house smell like I have been baking all day.

Dear Husband ... I'm sorry those candles are tricking you. I will surprise you one day.

Dear Netflix ... Thank you for giving me helpful suggestions on what you think I should watch. I am now deep into the second season of Gossip Girl. Where have I been? xo xo

Dear DirecTv ... Can you please just fork over the money you are still charging me to Fox, so I can watch the  X Factor?

Dear Biotch ... It's not really funny to add me as the responsible party when you go to Emergency Room. That's kinda like fraud. I will find you.

Dear Free Credit Report ... Without you, I would not have learned of the trickery fraud some biotch is up to.

Dear Ulta ... Thank you for turning me into a make up whore and emptying my bank account.

Dear Garth ... Just when I made the decision to come see you in a few months, you went and ended your gig at the Wynn.  That's not nice Garth.

Dear Bloggers & Readers ... Its nice to be back, I'm slowly catching up on all your blogs.

Happy Weekend!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Network vs Family

           One of the many beautiful sunsets  I get to see straight from my living room each night. I do not take it for granted.

Is your network of friends more important then your family?
As they say, Is blood thicker then water? I don't know anymore.

I grew up in a home and family where it was taught that family came first.
Yes, there may be a crazy one here or there, but it didn't matter.
You stuck to your guns, and you knew where your loyalty laid.
It wasn't even something you had to think about. Am I wrong?

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Knock, Knock?

Anyone Home?

I know. It's been awhile. A total of 126 days. Let's que the Season of Love music now. It's been one hundred eighty one thousand, four hundred and forty minutes. By the by, who doesn't love that song? And yes, I did just youtube it.

18 weeks. Where has the time gone? When Summer hit, I thought I would take a little break. I never for one second thought I would step away for this long. Life happens.

The real reason is because for once in my married life, my husband had normal working hours for the entire summer. My husband has a job that calls for off hours almost all the time. But for this entire summer, we had the same working hours, so when I was finishing up with work, he was coming home, and life happened. For some people, this may not be a big deal, but for me it is. My husband and I actually like each other.

So there ya go, totally my husbands fault. And now that we are back to not having the same schedule, here I am. See, told ya, it IS his fault.

And now seriously, how can we be in October already? I have so much to talk about. Summer happenings to share with you all. And this week, I compiled a list of things to talk about. I have refrained about talking many issues that are close to me, but since this is my space, I thought there is no better time to share. Many subjects to come. Stay tuned.

So kinda a new beginning here, along with a fresh look on the blog, and a new season to boot.

And to help get us in the Christmas season, you should totally take part in this ornament swap. Should be fun!


That's all for tonight, I'll be back soon! xx Shauna

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